post eight

my intention to write every day is about as sad as my intention to draw every day at the moment. I will try again.
Spring is upon us, my least favourite time of the year as the weather is so changeable. I am tired of the cold but not wanting the heat either..mmm.
Today is Fiona Baronowski's 51st bd, well it would have been. She died last year. She was my dear, dear friend. Happy birthday Fiona wherever you are. Perhaps with Simon. I miss her, we all miss her. A force of life is my favourite description of her.
Time passes oh so quickly yet the sadness oh so slowly. Over a year now Simon, gosh a year. Incredibly you seem more present now than ever, that I can't explain. I have started listening to some of your records. Cannot say I enjoyed Emerson,Lake and Palmer one bit but I got to the end, mercifully the LP's are shorter than CDs. There are many more to plough through and in the next two weeks I will get through them. Got to remember that they are two sided though. So used to CDs.
Finished reading The Rosie Project and thoroughly enjoyed it, on to The Rosie Effect soon.
Bought two lovely red tub chairs from the op shop, they look nice in the lounge.
A new friend who is selling up and travelling in her van soon came to deliver the chairs, Lynne. She was delighted by my abode and pronounced me as having Eclectic taste... mmmm... I think that is a fancy word for All Over the Place... but I don't mind, because I am most of the time. I must see her before she leaves. Just sent a message so on the ball.
Last weekend I went to Troys shop and caught up with gorgeous grandaughters Darcie and Shae. Darcie is growing so fast and such a lovely young lady. Shae is sweet with a mountain of issues that I only hope I am helping with. She wanted to come back to stay with me for the weekend, a short but fun stay. We chat a lot. She decided to try to teach me to sing, not successfully, but I tried. I would like to hold a tune and perhaps will have lessons one day. At the moment I am flat and nasal. We popped in to see Sue and Don then home to chill out. Sunday we went for a drive to potentially look at sustainable houses and gardens around the Bellarine with my friend Michelle. Whoops, got the wrong weekend which was why there was no-one at the houses. So on to ARmstrong Creek to look at display homes with Michelle as she has purchased a block of land there and needs to consider what type of house to build on it. That was fun. Shae enjoyed it which brought up all sorts of discussions about her future, her mother, her schooling etc. After a lengthy chat mainly about staying at school and maybe thinking about becoming a beautician one day we went shopping for bathers for her then back to Werribee to meet Troy. Chelsea was there so that was a bonus for me, have not seen that grandaughter for yonks, so different to her sister, self assured and confident most of the time.
All would have been totally pleasant if I had realised that Shae still had her restaurant op shop heels on and that sparked a fuse with her father who expected her to have her runners on. My fault as I let her wear them not realising that she has weak ankles and they are not appropriate. As usual when I think I have upset the applecart I weep. This of course makes it worse as then Troy thinks that he has upset me. He is like piggy in the middle having to deal with Shaes mother, Shae and me.... I really try not to make it worse for him no matter what I think. Anyway after hugs all round and Troy realising that I am still fragile when anyone gets upset at me we all went off to and Indian meal.  I had had many talks with Shae over the weekend about keeping her Epipen with her as she is anaphylactic. That set her anxiety off over dinner and she thought she was having trouble breathing because of the meal.... got all that sorted with her but I will have to be more careful just what I enlighten her about, she is still very young at 14 and has high anxiety.
Time for a walk and something to eat, cars being shunted back and forth in the driveway at moment and seems the van will live in my dining room window frame for the fortnight. Blocks the light but what can I say.

Have begun the research into beautician courses for shae so hopefully I will be able to help.