mothers day

Why should I start feeling melancholy as mothers day rapidly approaches. This is an arbitrary day when someone deemed it fit to celebrate mothers. Don't get me wrong, we need our efforts celebrated but singling out one day..I trained my children early in life that it was all commercial rubbish, well now I am older and they live away from home and to boot I am alone it is suddenly hard. I miss them all all the time anyway but this day looming makes it all the more difficult.  Perhaps I am in a dark place at the moment and I need them. Silently I will sit on the fence being my own best friend as I always have. Lets just hope that I wake up in the morning with a better attitude and that mothers day does not consume me. And my guilty secret is that just once I would like them all to suprise me and turn up together, before I reach 90 and am too old to get out of my wheelchair..... they are all good people with lovely families and that should be enough. My mum always said that they are only on loan to you whenever she came to see one of my newborn children.... good job no one reads this but me. Think I am also missing Simon today. Will rally and get over it.